August 12, 2019


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A NIH quote states that “Chronic pain is often defined as any pain lasting more than 12 weeks. Whereas acute pain is a normal sensation that alerts us to possible injury, chronic pain is very different.  Other health problems, such as fatigue, sleep disturbance, decreased appetite, and mood changes, often accompany chronic pain.”

As I am sure you all must think that pain dominates my life and you are right.  I go to bed at night worried about how much sleep I will get and worried about how much pain I will have when I wake up.  I worry about what I will be able to accomplish the next day.  Will the pain be overwhelming?  Will I be able to accomplish simple household tasks?  Will I be able to concentrate on reading a book?

My next family doctor appointment is in October.  The anxiety, stress, and worry has already begun.  Will this be the appointment when he decides that I no longer need pain medication?  Will this be the appointment when he decides my pain is insignificant?    Will he agree with the report from the Sports Medicine Rheumatologist who diagnosed me with arthritis in my left ankle and severe arthritis in my right ankle, arthritis in both knees, bone spurs and chondrocalcinosis in both knees, arthritis in both hips and in my spine.  Will this diagnosis be enough to allow me to continue the use of pain medication?

How do we impress upon our doctors the severity and frequency of our pain?  How do we make them believe that we are truly suffering and not just after “drugs”?  It is a proven fact that chronic pain sufferers do not run from doctor to doctor trying to obtain duplicate prescriptions.  Chronic pain sufferers do not have the energy to indulge in this form of drug-seeking.  Who is going to be an advocate for people who suffer from chronic pain?  Who is going to help them deal with all the problems associated with chronic pain?   So many questions and so few answers.

Pharmaceutical salespersons love to push new drugs and often give doctors’ perks in exchange for prescribing their drugs.   The medical profession is in the process of bad-mouthing opioids and taking pain relief from people who are in agony.   The medication that the drug companies push and doctors prescribe as a substitute for opioid medications are not the “be all” and “end all”.

Since the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention published its guideline for prescribing opioids for chronic pain in March 2016, pain patients have experienced increasing difficulty getting needed opioid medication due to denials by pharmacists and insurance providers.  Things have gotten so far out of hand that certain groups are threatening to sue the drug companies for making opioids.  Obviously, anyone involved in making opioids virtually impossible to obtain has never experienced intense pain.

According to data published in an article called  “Overzealous use of the CDC’s” the opioid prescribing guideline is harming pain patients.  The CDC suggests that illegally manufactured fentanyl, its analogs, and heroin are responsible for well over half of all overdose deaths. Stimulants like cocaine and methamphetamines are responsible for another third. Deaths related to prescription opioids come next in line, although many of those who died were not the intended recipient of the prescribed medication. In addition, most deaths involve multiple substances that are used in combination, often including alcohol.

The vast majority of people who report misusing prescription opioids did not get them from a doctor under medical supervision, and as many as 70 percent reported prior use of substances like cocaine and methamphetamines.

Confusing the abuse of opioids with their legitimate use and treating all opioids whether illegal or a legal prescription the same is punishing and stigmatizing patients for whom opioid painkillers are necessary and medically appropriate.  It is abusing patients who would not be able to get out of bed in the morning were it not for the pain relief of opioid medication.  Most legitimate users of opioids will tell you that the medication never takes the pain away completely but it makes the pain bearable.

What is very concerning is that some physicians who specialize in pain management are leaving their practices.  Others are tapering their patients off of opioid medication only because the doctors are afraid of losing their licenses or facing criminal charges.  This happened to me.  I had to change doctors because my family doctor, Dr. NoName accepted another position in a hospital.  I had a month to find a new family doctor.  At the time I thought I was very fortunate.  The new doctor, Dr. Eve was wonderful, capable of listening to my health problems, not afraid of referring me to a specialist and had no problem continuing my prescription for an opioid medication to help deal with my pain.  Three years later I was told a fairy tale.  This lovely doctor who I trusted and believed to actually be concerned about my health issues told me she was leaving her practice.  I had to find yet another family doctor.  Dr. Eve informed me that she had registered me with a new family doctor, Dr. Creeper.  She promised me that he would prescribe for me the same medications that she had prescribed.  You can imagine my horror the first time I saw Dr. Creeper.  He accused me of being a drug addict.  He told me that no one needed opioids for pain relief and that he was going to stop all the doctors in the clinic from prescribing opioids.  He went on to tell me that all the affluent people in our town were addicted to opioids.  Dr. Creeper is too kind of a name.  Well, talk about feeling betrayed.  Three months after leaving her practice Dr. Eve was back accepting new patients.  She would not accept former patients.  This was Dr. Eve’s way of getting rid of her patients who required opioid prescriptions.

According to Overzealous use of the CDC’s opioid prescribing guideline is harming pain patients  The laudable goal of these laws and policies is to stem the tide of unprecedented overdose deaths and addiction in the U.S. But here are three interesting facts: Opioid prescribing is currently at an 18-year low. The rate of prescribing opioids has dropped every year since 2011. Yet drug overdose deaths have skyrocketed since then.

Certainly, doctors have the ability to note the difference between someone in pain or someone looking for a high.  To punish 71-year-old women who are experiencing pain by withholding pain medication is disgusting and cruel.  In fact, withholding pain medication from anyone who is living with chronic pain is diabolical.

My hands are tired and I need to get some sleep so I will get off my soapbox and crawl into bed.  For the last two nights, I have been waking up every two hours because of the pain.  Sleep deprivation is not nice.

I have been negligent in continuing the Monday evening chats.  Since many people are busy outdoors during the summer months I have decided to continue the chats beginning in September.  The time and date will be announced in a week or so.  If you are suffering from an autoimmune disease and/or chronic fatigue and chronic pain please feel free to join our chats.

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August 5, 2019

Since my grandson and his partner moved in we have a little or a rather huge critter living in our basement. The cat belongs to our grandson’s partner and our two animals had a bit of trouble adjusting to this creature downstairs. At first, whenever Lunar escaped from his home and snuck up the stairs my two creatures would bark and chase poor Lunar back down the stairs. Things have improved and now when Gaby starts her barking which sounds more like yelling she is wagging her tail. When I shake my finger at her and tell her to be quiet, she listens, at least for a while.   Patches only barks when Gaby tells him to. Sounds crazy, I know, but she has a way of nudging him so that he knows exactly what she expects him to do. Here are a few pictures of the creatures in our zoo.








My pain during these last few weeks has been quite severe again.  This morning I had had enough.  When this happens, I tend to hide away in my den and write.

A researcher at McGill University says that for the most part, the health care community focuses on medical advances and shows little interest in finding treatments for chronic pain. (iStock)  CBC News.

I felt it was important to add this article, published September 28, 2013, to my blog in case my readers did not notice it online.  The article reads as follows.

For many Canadian doctors, managing pain is ‘not a high priority’.  The headlines are full of breakthroughs heralding new treatments and cures for a host of debilitating and lethal diseases and conditions.  But for the millions of Canadians who suffer from chronic pain, relief – let alone a cure – is still elusive.

According to the Canadian Pain Society, one in five Canadians suffers from chronic pain. Yet treatment has not been a priority in our health care system; instead, people who complain of chronic pain are all too often derided as whiners.  They say doctors are incredulous that their pain – which might have no apparent cause – could possibly be that bad.  Or else they’re just counseled to grin and bear it.

That nonchalance reflects an attitude in western cultures, where pain is largely considered a sign of virtue and a test of character, says Dr. Fernando Cervero, director of the Alan Edwards Centre for Research on Pain at McGill University.

Attitudes slowly changing

But Dr. Cervero notes that social attitudes are changing. Patients and their advocates are demanding better and more timely treatment for chronic pain. But the medical establishment has not kept pace with those changes. For example, veterinary students receive much more training in pain management than medical students.

The societal change in attitudes toward pain “has not completely permeated all the way to the medical schools,” Dr. Cervero told The Sunday Edition’s, Michael Enright. “In a curriculum that is getting more and more busy with more and more discoveries in medicine – and we all have to fight for time in the medical curriculum – pain is not a high priority.”

Dr. Cervero, who will be speaking at an international symposium on pain at McGill University says more must be done to make the relief of pain, especially for chronic pain sufferers, a top priority in Canadian health care.

“It’s not right for people to suffer unnecessarily,” he said.

It seems that medical professionals, both in Canada and the United States,  have not listened to someone like Dr. Cervero.  Instead of helping people who suffer from chronic pain, our doctors have made many of our lives hell on earth.  They certainly have done nothing to make the relief of chronic pain a top priority in Canadian health care.  Many doctors are afraid of prescribing pain medication because they fear censure.   What about the patient’s fear?

According to the internet, chronic pain patients are not only having problems getting opioid medication, but most are also finding it hard just finding a  doctor willing to treat their pain, according to a new survey.  Over 70 percent of patients said they are no longer being prescribed opioid medication or are getting a lower dose.   Mar 16, 2017

The following Canadian Code of Ethics for Doctors is an interesting read.  There are quite a number of points that my doctors have not bothered to follow.  Sadly, I and many others are the ones who suffer.

CMA Code of Ethics  (Update 2004) Last reviewed March 2018: Still Relevant

Fundamental Responsibilities:

1. Consider first the well-being of the patient.
2. Practice the profession of medicine in a manner that treats the patient with dignity and as a person worthy of respect.
3. Provide for appropriate care for your patient, even when cure is no longer possible, including physical comfort and spiritual and psychosocial support.
4. Consider the well-being of society in matters affecting health.
5. Practice the art and science of medicine competently, with integrity and without impairment.
6. Engage in lifelong learning to maintain and improve your professional knowledge, skills, and attitudes.
7. Resist any influence or interference that could undermine your professional integrity.
8. Contribute to the development of the medical profession, whether through clinical practice, research, teaching, administration or advocating on behalf of the profession or the public.
9. Refuse to participate in or support practices that violate basic human rights.
10. Promote and maintain your own health and well-being.

Responsibilities to the Patient – General Responsibilities

11. Recognize and disclose conflicts of interest that arise in the course of your professional duties and activities, and resolve them in the best interest of patients.
12. Inform your patient when your personal values would influence the recommendation or practice of any medical procedure that the patient needs or wants.
13. Do not exploit patients for personal advantage.
14. Take all reasonable steps to prevent harm to patients; should harm occur, disclose it to the patient.
15. Recognize your limitations and, when indicated, recommend or seek additional opinions and services.
16. In determining professional fees to patients for non-insured services, consider both the nature of the service provided and the ability of the patient to pay, and be prepared to discuss the fee with the patient.

Initiating and Dissolving a Patient-Physician Relationship

17. In providing medical service, do not discriminate against any patient on such grounds as age, gender, marital status, medical condition, national or ethnic origin, physical or mental disability, political affiliation, race, religion, sexual orientation, or socioeconomic status. This does not abrogate the physician’s right to refuse to accept a patient for legitimate reasons.
18. Provide whatever appropriate assistance you can to any person with an urgent need for medical care.
19. Having accepted professional responsibility for a patient, continue to provide services until they are no longer required or wanted; until another suitable physician has assumed responsibility for the patient; or until the patient has been given reasonable notice that you intend to terminate the relationship.
20. Limit treatment of yourself or members of your immediate family to minor or emergency services and only when another physician is not readily available; there should be no fee for such treatment.

Communication, Decision Making, and Consent

21. Provide your patients with the information they need to make informed decisions about their medical care, and answer their questions to the best of your ability.
22. Make every reasonable effort to communicate with your patients in such a way that information exchanged is understood.
23. Recommend only those diagnostic and therapeutic services that you consider to be beneficial to your patient or to others. If a service is recommended for the benefit of others, as for example in matters of public health, inform your patient of this fact and proceed only with explicit informed consent or where required by law.
24. Respect the right of a competent patient to accept or reject any medical care recommended.
25. Recognize the need to balance the developing competency of minors and the role of families in medical decision-making. Respect the autonomy of those minors who are authorized to consent to treatment.
26. Respect your patient’s reasonable request for a second opinion from a physician of the patient’s choice.
27. Ascertain wherever possible and recognize your patient’s wishes about the initiation, continuation or cessation of life-sustaining treatment.
28. Respect the intentions of an incompetent patient as they were expressed (e.g., through a valid advance directive or proxy designation) before the patient became incompetent.
29. When the intentions of an incompetent patient are unknown and when no formal mechanism for making treatment decisions is in place, render such treatment as you believe to be in accordance with the patient’s values or, if these are unknown, the patient’s best interests.
30. Be considerate of the patient’s family and significant others and cooperate with them in the patient’s interest.

Privacy and Confidentiality

31. Protect the personal health information of your patients.
32. Provide information reasonable in the circumstances to patients about the reasons for the collection, use, and disclosure of their personal health information.
33. Be aware of your patient’s rights with respect to the collection, use, disclosure and access to their personal health information; ensure that such information is recorded accurately.
34. Avoid public discussions or comments about patients that could reasonably be seen as revealing confidential or identifying information.
35. Disclose your patients’ personal health information to third parties only with their consent, or as provided for by law, such as when the maintenance of confidentiality would result in a significant risk of substantial harm to others or, in the case of incompetent patients, to the patients themselves. In such cases take all reasonable steps to inform the patients that the usual requirements for confidentiality will be breached.
36. When acting on behalf of a third party, take reasonable steps to ensure that the patient understands the nature and extent of your responsibility to the third party.
37. Upon a patient’s request, provide the patient or a third party with a copy of his or her medical record, unless there is a compelling reason to believe that information contained in the record will result in substantial harm to the patient or others.


38. Ensure that any research in which you participate is evaluated both scientifically and ethically and is approved by a research ethics board that meets current standards of practice.
39. Inform the potential research subject, or proxy, about the purpose of the study, its source of funding, nature and relative probability of harms and benefits, and the nature of your participation including any compensation.
40. Before proceeding with the study, obtain the informed consent of the subject, or proxy, and advise prospective subjects that they have the right to decline or withdraw from the study at any time, without prejudice to their ongoing care.

Responsibilities to Society 

41. Recognize that community, society and the environment are important factors in the health of individual patients.
42. Recognize the profession’s responsibility to society in matters relating to public health, health education, environmental protection, legislation affecting the health or well-being of the community and the need for testimony at judicial proceedings.
43. Recognize the responsibility of physicians to promote equitable access to health care resources.
44. Use health care resources prudently.
45. Recognize a responsibility to give generally held opinions of the profession when interpreting scientific knowledge to the public; when presenting an opinion that is contrary to the generally held opinion of the profession, so indicate.

Responsibilities to the Profession

46. Recognize that the self-regulation of the profession is a privilege and that each physician has a continuing responsibility to merit this privilege and to support its institutions.
47. Be willing to teach and learn from medical students, residents, other colleagues, and other health professionals.
48. Avoid impugning the reputation of colleagues for personal motives; however, report to the appropriate authority any unprofessional conduct by colleagues.
49. Be willing to participate in peer review of other physicians and to undergo review by your peers. Enter into associations, contracts, and agreements only if you can maintain your professional integrity and safeguard the interests of your patients.
50. Avoid promoting, as a member of the medical profession, any service (except your own) or product for personal gain.
51. Do not keep secret from colleagues the diagnostic or therapeutic agents and procedures that you employ.
52. Collaborate with other physicians and health professionals in the care of patients and the functioning and improvement of health services. Treat your colleagues with dignity and as persons worthy of respect.

Responsibilities to Oneself

53. Seek help from colleagues and appropriately qualified professionals for personal problems that might adversely affect your service to patients, society or the profession.
54. Protect and enhance your own health and well being by identifying those stress factors in your professional and personal lives that can be managed by developing and practicing appropriate coping strategies.

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July 19, 2019

It has been too long since I have written a blog post. I do have a good excuse, at least I think I do. Since March I have been busy working on my Zacharias family research project and am very happy to announce that it went live during the July 1st long weekend.  After a few glitches, and these are expected, it is exactly as I had imagined it would be. Funny how when something captures your imagination and keeps your brain busy, chronic pain is not as hard to deal with.  As of this week, I have entered the names and details of 2,278 descendants of Wilhelm Zacharias who was born in the year 1700.  The site also includes 219 family histories and documents, 14 videos, and 13 albums of pictures. This week I continued the task of translating just over 150 letters written by the descendants of Wilhelm Zacharias who lived in the former Soviet Union and survived Hitler’s camps and Stalin’s gulags. The letters are dated from the early 1920s to the late 1970s.  Reading this material gives me a different perspective on my pain issues. I suffer pain, yes, but I suffer it in the comfort of my own home without having to worry about what horrific events my family might have to endure in the coming days.   Since I still have 21 big binders of research material my project will keep me busy for quite some time.

We finally had some old fashioned thunderstorms and rain this past week. In fact, one night it rained so hard that the back yard turned into a lake. We had a bit of water come into the basement but it was quickly cleaned up with a few towels. The problems that caused the flooding are the wretched window wells that house builders here in Manitoba insist on using with basement windows. This time the drainage pipe in the window well was clogged by silt. Thankfully, after a bit of elbow grease on the part of my husband and grandson the water could drain again. Whoever thought up the concept of these window wells was a few sandwiches short of a picnic.  As you can see by the video below our puppies enjoyed the fresh rainwater in the ditches.

Last month I received the results of the last MRI of my liver and lab work. Thankfully there has been no change.  It is always such a relief to hear those words, “no change.”  I have an MRI and lab work done every six months.  Alcohol was something I never enjoyed because of the migraine headaches it gave me so you can imagine my horror and surprise when I was told that I had cirrhosis of the liver.  Autoimmune diseases are nasty.

My hydrangeas started blooming this week and my gladiolas are eight inches high.  Because I no longer can take care of flower beds we put out the minimum amount of plants every spring.  The two urns on either side of the garage door each get a basket of petunias.  The hydrangeas, hostas, and roses are perennials.  We added the gladiolas, one of my favourite flowers, this spring.

A dear friend of mine lost her husband a week ago Monday. He was recuperating from knee surgery and had gone to the kitchen to make coffee that Monday morning.  My friend heard this terrible crash and when she got to the kitchen he was gone.  I cannot imagine how lonely she must feel.  They were a couple that just belonged together.  This past week Monday another friend lost her husband after he had battled cancer for two years.  He had been doing quite well so his sudden death was not expected.  She too will feel an incredible void in her life.

It is 4:30 AM and I have yet to get even a few minutes of sleep.  I hate nights like this when sleep eludes me.  It takes forever to catch up after just one sleepless night which might be due to old age.  Like my mom always said, whoever coined the phrase the “Golden years” did not have a clue.

In case any of you need a good laugh check out the video below.  I laughed so hard I had tears running down my face.

Here is a picture of my own Mrs. Brown.  My husband took this picture and emailed it to me a while ago while I was in the hospital.   It certainly kept the staff amused.  Well, I think I will crawl back into bed and see if sleep will finally decide to visit me tonight.  Hope you all have a great weekend.

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June 4, 2019


My mom and me

It has been too long since I have posted, but my genealogy project has kept my fingers and brain rather busy.  At my last doctor’s appointment, my blood pressure was within normal levels which is always a cause for joy.  He referred to my pain issues as generalized arthritis, which was such a relief and a blessing to hear.  Those of you without pain issues will think I belong in the loony bin after a statement like this, but knowing the reason for the pain makes life so much easier.   Get some pain and you will understand.   The doctor again confirmed that he felt I should qualify for a free tummy tuck and breast reduction because of the weight I have lost and managed to keep off.  Believe me, I can hardly wait for that day.  The removable of the excess flab will probably reduce my weight by quite a few more pounds.  I can always hope!

Don’t you just hate it when pharmaceutical companies have a shortage on a pill you need?  For the last three months, my pharmacy has not been able to access the 25 mg Cytomel pill and because of this, I have to take 5 of the 5mg pills.  I guess I should be happy that they are available.

We had a lovely visit with my cousin and his wife for the American Memorial day weekend.  When they come up to Canada, we go out for supper and then come back to our house for dessert.  Their little granddaughter is a sweetheart.  Her Grandma Ann,

pinkpianoan accomplished pianist, got her granddaughter this incredibly cute piano.  What an amazing gift.  The video of the little girl playing her piano is priceless.

The genealogy I have been working on has been both interesting and frustrating.  The TNG software I purchased from Darrin Lythgoe, the developer is amazing.  If you are interested in genealogy I highly recommend this software.  I made one big error and that was trusting the software engineer from Codeable to make the TNG software and WordPress compatible.  There is a TNG plugin for WordPress.   I needed Woo Commerce to sell subscriptions and keep track of memberships once my site is live.  Thus the Codeable software engineer.  I specifically stated that my WordPress welcome page and Woo Commerce extensions namely Subscriptions and Memberships needed to be linked to my TNG site.  He was also to make the TNG site available to paid-up members only.  Imagine my total disbelief and horror to be told that the only way this might be possible if I paid over a thousand dollars after I had already paid for services not rendered.

So far I have entered over 2140 names on my genealogy site called The Zacharias Family Tree.  I have also entered over 100 pictures and 25 family histories and stories.  Translating old letters that came from Russia was both interesting and heartbreaking.  These people suffered horribly under the Hitler, Lenin, and Stalin regimes.  Stalin killed many more people than Hitler.  The Yalta Agreement made between Churchill, Roosevelt and Stalin made life hell on earth for many of them.   I admire these people and I wonder if I would have had the stamina to keep going under the same conditions.  The following is a picture of my mother’s parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and cousins.  It was taken shortly before my mom and her parents left their village in the middle of the night and made their way out of the former Soviet Union to freedom.


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May 2, 2019

It finally looks like spring might be making some headways here in Manitoba.  It snowed during the last week of April but luckily we got very little compared to some places in Western Manitoba.  Apparently, Calgary and Edmonton got hit pretty hard.  I remember going camping at Kananaskis just after our move to Calgary.  The weather had been gorgeous when we left home that Saturday afternoon.  In fact, it was so nice we wore shorts.  Coming from Manitoba we had no idea how quickly the weather could change.  By the time we had supper at the campground it was raining and by the time we went to bed, it was snowing.  We were practically frozen solid by the time morning arrived.  The showers in the campground were packed with people waiting to warm up with hot water.  We were finally escorted out of the park and to the Trans Canada highway by the RCMP.  So snow in Calgary at the end of April does not surprise me.  Today it is a sunny 9 C and apparently later today it is supposed to reach 16C.  Almost swimming pool weather.

Earlier in April, I was plagued by severe pain in my back around the hip area.  Since I hate going to the doctor or even worse emergency I kept putting off the inevitable.  On April 20th I finally could no longer handle the added pain so off to the walk-in clinic.   A note on the clinic door advised us that they were full up so we had no other choice but the emergency at the local hospital.  We arrived at 12:30 PM.  It took till 7:00 PM to give me a bottle to pee in and a diagnosis of a kidney infection.  I must say that the doctor I finally saw was very thorough and pleasant to deal with.  The antibiotics were a nightmare.  The pills were an inch long and about 30 minutes after taking one I experienced severe nausea.  Gravol shots can be a blessing.

As I mentioned in a previous post I have revived my genealogy project, a project I started in the early 80s.  I have been researching my grandfather’s mother’s side of the family.  So far I have been able to trace the family back to 1700 and have added 900 names.  Right now I am busy translating letters from relatives in the Soviet Union to relatives in Canada.  The letters were written between 1920 and 1950 and what makes the translations more difficult is that the authors used High German, Platdeutsch and Russian in their letters.  The stories told in these letters are incredibly sad and it boggles my mind how these people retained their sanity under the conditions they had to live with.   Men were arrested at night and set to the Gulags never to be seen again, political prisoners, including women and children, were put on trains in cattle cars and shipped to Stalin and Hitler’s camps and children starved to death just to name a few atrocities.   When compared to what these people lived through my complaints are ridiculously minor.

I must get back to my project so will close for today.  Hope all my readers have a great weekend.


This video was taken earlier this month.  It shows two crows busy pulling strips of bark off a tree in our back yard.

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March 17, 2019

Finally, it looks like spring might be on its way.  The temperature today is -1C.  Of course, these old bones of mine let me know well in advance of a weather change.  To think that a while ago I did not believe that aching bones could be brought on by barometric pressure and temperature changes.  Trust me I have learned the hard way.

Years ago I began a family research project which I had intended to publish in book form.  However, life has a way of getting in the way of good intentions.  Truth be told another reason for not finishing the book was that no one was interested.  I have decided to get back to writing and finishing this project.  What the end result will be is still an unknown.  It does make me feel like I am finally accomplishing something besides moaning and groaning about my pain.  I was very fortunate to have my grandpa around for the first few years that I worked on this project. I so enjoyed the time I spent with him listening to him and recording his stories.

My doctor’s appointment earlier this month was a positive one.  I got another six months of medications.  The big moment was when he told me that I will probably qualify for a breast reduction and tummy tuck.  I have been having terrible problems controlling a constant yeast infection on certain portions of my body.  I have been losing weight for a while; in fact, so far it is 70 lbs.  This, of course, leaves one with places for the yeast to grow.  After talking to my doctor and explaining the weight loss and subsequent issues he agreed that I would be a good candidate for the above-mentioned surgery.  What a motivation to keep losing the weight.  Heck, the tummy tuck and breast reduction should take care of quite a few more pounds.  I know that at the age of almost 71 I will never again have the body I once had but at least the fat will be reduced.  

Arthritis seems to have spread to my fingers which is most annoying.  I find that the more I type the more they hurt but by the same token the more I type the less they eventually hurt.  Go figure.  

If the temperatures continue in this warming trend enough snow will soon melt so I can get back to riding my tricycle.  I still feel weird riding it but I really have no choice.  My balance problems do not allow me to ride a regular bike which I miss terribly.  When I was a kid, between the ages of 8-12 I would spend my Saturdays riding around the countryside on my bike.  I would pack a banana and peanut butter sandwich, grab a drink and get on my bike and ride.  To beat the boredom of just riding my bike I would go to different farmyards and either ask for directions or ask for a drink of water.  My motive was to get inside the house to see how other people lived.  Pathetically nosey I know.  I would ride around for hours.  My parents would have had a fit if they had known what I was up to.  My dad had told me if I hoed one short row of beets he would buy me a new CCM bike. I got the new bike but after the one row, he never wanted me on a beet field again.  I destroyed more beets than weeds.  

Hope you all have a great week. 

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March 3, 2019

singingberthaThe audio is a snippet of a song (words and music) written by my son and grandson during a visit to Seattle in 2004.

Another weekend is coming to a close and the Arctic Vortex refuses to leave this part of the country.  Apparently, we have had the coldest February since 1967.  The weather forecasters keep telling us that warmer weather is on the way, but I suggest that no one hold their breath waiting for it to arrive.

The tremendous shifts in the barometric pressure have made this month rather memorable.  I thought that in such cold weather the barometric pressure would remain constant.  But oh no, I was wrong.  Apparently, a move to Arizona would solve the barometric pressure problem.

In the last four weeks I have managed to accomplish things on my “to do list.”   Being a hoarder of sorts, I kept all the cards that we have received as a family since 1967.   Finally took the time to sort through them.  Several years ago I purchased archival photo albums.  However, many of my photos remained in a box.   Finally got them sorted and put into photo albums.  When my day is tolerable and my energy level is such that I can actually think about finishing up projects, I tend to overdo it.   However, I do get a feeling of accomplishment.

Chronic pain is physically and emotionally stressful.  Trying to cope with chronic pain can lead to anger, frustrations, and despair.  Here are some recommended ways to help with chronic pain:

  • Learn deep breathing or meditation to help – I have tried this and when the pain is really bad I cannot concentrate enough to breath deeply or meditate.
  • Reduce Stress – again, something I have struggled with.
  • Exercise – this is something that I cannot do.  I have been referred to physical therapy, but the wait for an appointment is six months.
  • Cut back on alcohol and smoking – I did not drink alcohol and have not smoked for 10 years.

I would certainly recommend trying the above methods if you suffer from chronic pain but do not expect miracles.

Well, it is bedtime and tomorrow is another day.  When I am fighting pain I find it hard to write an interesting blog.  Do not give up on me.  I will try to improve my writing skills.

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February 4, 2019

The second month in 2019 and not much has changed in my life.   I made two roasters full of Holopchi the other day.  They turned out really well, even if I say so myself.  However, the day after I made them, I slept for almost 24 hours.   I should be grateful that I was able to make them.

January was a month of temperature and barometric pressure fluctuations.  Along with that came pain, horrific, debilitating pain.  It often amazes me that I manage to plug along day after day without too many complaints.  I do, however, carry anger inside, anger against the doctors who want to make it their goal in life to take away any form of pain control that allows me to survive.

As I mentioned in a previous blog entry, my family doctor sent me to a rheumatologist in November 2018.  I asked for and received the report that she sent to my family doctor after my appointment.  She basically attributed my pain in the mornings as merely stiffness and made the suggestion all I needed was an exercise to deal with this stiffness.  After much deliberation, my husband and I decided that this could not stand as the truth in my medical records.  We wrote a letter to both the rheumatologist and my family doctor reporting the falsehoods in her report.  My end of February appointment with my family doctor should be an interesting meeting.  I have been penalized before when trying to set the record straight with a doctor so who knows what will happen.  Just another stressor in my life.

Tomorrow afternoon, my sister and cousin will be coming to my house for an overdue visit.  The three of us try to get together once a month.  Going through some of my mom’s papers that I had not had the energy to go through before this I found a letter written by my cousin’s grandmother.  It was written in the Gothic script.  My husband was able to translate it into English for her.

During the month of January, I managed to set up an online store selling collectibles, and art using my prints and watercolours.  The store URL is Widebertha’s Originals.  Check it out.

Well, it is time to try to sleep.  Hope you all will have a pain free sleep.

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January 14, 2019

It is the middle of January and we have been experiencing very mild temperatures for this time of year.  The barometric pressure has been bouncing all over the place.  This, of course, brings on a load of pain.  At one time I believed that weather changes could not possibly have any impact on pain but I have certainly learned my lesson.

NIH Medline Plus states  “Chronic pain is often defined as any pain lasting more than 12 weeks. Whereas acute pain is a normal sensation that alerts us to possible injury, chronic pain is very different. Chronic pain persists—often for months or even longer.   Chronic pain may arise from an initial injury, such as a back sprain, or there may be an ongoing cause, such as illness. However, there may also be no clear cause. Other health problems, such as fatigue, sleep disturbance, decreased appetite, and mood changes, often accompany chronic pain. Chronic pain may limit a person’s movements, which can reduce flexibility, strength, and stamina. This difficulty in carrying out important and enjoyable activities can lead to disability and despair.”

Our daughter is an event planner and we attended her 12th Night Supper on Saturday evening.  She sold all the tickets beforehand and had a lovely group of people in attendance.   She and her son had a great time putting on a puppet performance called “The Night Before Christmas”.   At times like this, I wish that I was capable of lending a hand with the preparations.  Thankfully my husband was able to help with the dishes after the evening ended.  At least one of us could pitch in.

It is almost midnight and I should try to get some sleep.   The nights can seem very long when one wakes up every hour or so.  The bogeymen seem to come out around 3:00 AM and drive me around the bend.  At that time of the night, my mind comes up with the most terrifying thoughts and the memories I want to forget.poisonrai

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January 4, 2019

The beginning of 2019 has been an unmitigated disaster.  I had been battling knee pain since the 26th so you can imagine my surprise when I woke up on New Year’s day with the most horrendous hip pain imaginable.   Life can be a bitch.  The pain has finally eased off somewhat today.

At times like this when the pain becomes unbearable, I take a look at my life and wonder what the heck I did to deserve this “punishment”.  Oh, I am the first one to admit I screwed up royally in my life and have had to live with that for a very long time.  But enough is enough.  What I have also realized is that no one likes to listen to a whiner.

So I will wish you all a good night and crawl back into bed and contemplate my life.

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